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My Worst Habits - Shreya Sachdev

Hi everyone! I hope you're all having a nice day. For today's blog post, I thought I would tell you guys all about my worst habits. This idea came to me today because I received my component breakdown scores for the IB today and before I got them, I kept thinking about how awful they were going to be and how badly I had probably done in all of my exams. I realized that a really bad habit of mine is assuming the worst, and then I began to think about other bad habits I have and realized that it would make a really interesting blog post. Everyone has different bad habits that are very specific to the person and I thought it would be interesting if I shared mine to see whether or not you guys also have the same bad habits as me. I want to clarify that I will be talking about both physical habits (for example biting your nails or scratching your arm) and mental habits (for example keeping a grudge or forgetting to reply back to text messages) in this post. If any of you have any strange or interesting habits, then make sure to let me know as I’m always interested in hearing what you have to say! As always, make sure to subscribe to my newsletter so you never miss any updates and without further ado, let's get started!

1. Always assuming the worst: As I said above, I always assume the worst in different situations. I don't know why this always happens to me, but for some reason I always think about the worst case scenario possible and once it's in my head, I can't get it out even though the chances of it happening are extremely unlikely. For example, just yesterday I got my IB results. Now, I was very happy with my results and I had actually improved in every single subject I wanted to and my total IB score was much higher than what I had been getting previously. However, two or three days prior to getting my results, I kept thinking about how horrible they were going to be. Even though I had studied really hard for my exams and had even gotten tutoring to make sure I did well, I kept on thinking that I wasn’t even going to pass and that I had failed all my classes. This was far from the truth and I have no idea why I kept thinking in such a negative way. I suppose it’s normal for emotions and feelings to get in the way of clear logical thinking when you have a lot to lose, but the amount of stress I went through before getting my results was absolutely torture and I just wish I could program myself to think more positively.

2. Caring too much about what other people think: I think this is quite normal among most people, and that’s caring too much about what other people think. For me, whilst I have gotten better at ignoring what other people think of me, I’m constantly worried about whether or not people are going to think what I’m wearing to school is weird, or if people think that the things I say in class are dumb and don’t make any sense. I think having a website, however, has taught me to believe in myself and as long as I continue to work on what I’m passionate about, then that’s all that matters. I really believe that once you completely stop caring about what other people think of you, you have reached an amazing level of freedom and happiness. Therefore, I hope that I can continue to work on not caring about what other people think of me as I’m sure it will help me later on in life.

3. Remembering stuff from a while ago: This happens to me all the time, and that’s remembering things from a while ago and getting upset over them. For example, I’ll be hanging out with one of my best friends and having a really good time and then all of a sudden I’ll remember something she did a few months or even years ago that I didn’t like, and all of a sudden I’ll get upset over it and begin to act all weird. I hate it when this happens, but the truth is I have a difficult time letting go of things, even if they happened years ago. I’m really not doing myself any favors by remembering fights and arguments that happened such a long time ago, because what’s in the past is in the past and of course people have changed and what matters now is the present and the future. However, sometimes it’s not only that I get upset over things that have happened but in the past, but I also get embarrassed by them. I don’t know about you, but I always think about things that I did in the past, especially middle school, and I get so embarrassed thinking about them and I literally cringe so much. I remember things I said or did in class when I was like twelve years old and I feel so humiliated. The next time I start to feel upset or embarrassed over something that happened ages ago in my life, I’ll be sure to tell myself to focus on the present because the present is all that matters.

4. Scratching my forehead/hairline: I’m not sure if I’m referring to the correct place, but when I was really young I got stitches near where my hairline is and for a while now, a bad habit of mine has become constantly scratching the place where I got stitches. I don’t know why, but honestly it just feels good and I can’t explain why. I think a lot of people have different places on their body (as creepy as it sounds) that they like to scratch, and for me that happens to be my hairline! Along with scratching my forehead, I also find it satisfying to twist my hair and make it even more knotted up than it already is. I know it sounds so strange and I don’t even understand it myself, but it’s satisfying.

Shreya Sachdev