These Are My Insecurities - Shreya Sachdev
Hi everyone! I hope you’re all having a nice day. For today’s blog post, I thought I would share my four biggest insecurities with you guys. Of course, I’m an eighteen year old teenage girl who has just finished high school so it’s no surprise that I do have some insecurities. Honestly, I wasn’t sure whether or not I actually wanted to write this post because I always try and focus on the positive things and the aspects that I love about myself rather than my insecurities and the things that I wish I could hide, but then I realized that I want to reach a stage in my life where I don’t want to hide any part of me and I want to be confident about my insecurities. Everyone has insecurities and they’re all extremely different because obviously we’ve all been grown up differently with different looks, and I thought that by sharing mine today it could inspire all of you to acknowledge your insecurities and try and accept them more and more, till you finally reach a point in your life where you’re comfortable with your own insecurities and that they stop being “insecurities” if that makes sense. I’m not writing this post for anyone to feel any kind of pity for me or to make it seem as if I’m seeing compliments and attention because I’m really not. I’m just trying to accept a part of me that I haven’t always been proud of and encourage my visitors to do the same. Make sure to let me know what your biggest insecurities are and why you have them, and without further ado let’s get started!
Body: I think this one is definitely quite common with teenage girls, and that’s being insecure about your body. For me, I’ve always been really insecure of my height because I’m so short. My parents are also very short and growing up, I was always the smallest or second smallest girl in my grade. I know there are some people who think it’s like “cute” and stuff, but I really do wish that I was just a few centimeters taller so that I could at least be at a medium height. Whenever I’m around people, I feel very inferior and I look even smaller in photos so sometimes I can be very embarrassed by my height. Then again, because I’m a girl I don’t think it’s the worst thing. I think it’s a lot worse for boys who are really short since in our society we expect boys to be tall. Nevertheless, like I said, it would be nice to be a few centimeters taller and not have people use you for arm rests, look down at you, and constantly ask you how tall you are. I think what made me even more insecure about this was that when I was in high school, I had a crush on a guy who was really tall. I think he was one of the tallest guys in my grade and because I was so short and he was so tall I felt kind of weird. But yeah, there are definitely advantages to being short but I’d still like it if I was slightly taller.
Smile: So, I wouldn’t say that this is a really big insecurity of mine because I kind of love my smile but hate it at the same time. As some of you might know, I had braces when I was thirteen years old all the way till I was fifteen years old, and when I got them off my teeth looked really good and I started to smile with my teeth more. My teeth are straight and there’s nothing wrong with them now, but I still feel kind of insecure when I smile. I think it’s because for a very long time I only smiled without my teeth since I had braces on, and even if they’re off now I still feel a little shy smiling with my teeth. Sometimes, I see photos of myself smiling with my teeth and I really like them, but other times I see photos of myself smiling with my teeth and I don’t like them at all. I really want to make sure that I’m comfortable with my smile and really like it because I smile so much. For those of you who know me, you know that I literally smile when there’s nothing to smile about and even in serious moments because that’s just how my face is I guess.
Hair: One of my really big insecurities is my hair. I actually get a lot of compliments on my hair, but the truth is that it’s a total mess. I’m always tying it up or tucking it behind my ears because I’m so insecure of my hair. I have wavy/curly hair and if any of you have hair like me, then you know how hard it is to brush your hair when it’s dry because then it gets to frizzy and ends up looking like an afro. Therefore, I dry it when it’s wet but then I have to be very careful to not touch it or I’ll accidentally unravel the curls. Even when I brush my hair when it’s wet, I don’t like my hair because then it ends up being so curly that it looks extremely messy. I wish I had really straight hair or really curly hair, as opposed to having it be in between and always having wavy hair. I look back at old photos of myself when I was eleven to twelve years old and that’s when I really liked my hair and thought it was one of the best features I had, but now I dislike my hair. I’m trying to take care of it and am constantly shampooing and conditioning it, but it’s still not how I would like it to be at the moment. I definitely don’t plan on ever dying it, because I had dyed my hair ombre when I was sixteen years old and I ended up hating it so I’m not planning on doing that again, and I also am making sure to not use any heat (straightening or curling) on my hair until I am happy with the way it looks.
Voice: Lastly, I am insecure about my voice. This isn’t a big insecurity of mine but I think I just hate listening to the sound of my own voice on recording. As some of you might know, I used to host a podcast on this website and whenever I recorded myself, I could never play the sound back or edit anything out because I hated listening to my voice. I actually read somewhere that it’s common for everyone to hate the sound of their own voice when they listening to it on a recording, so I don’t think I’m along here. If any of you were wondering, even though I’m Indian I don’t have an Indian accent, and even though I’m Swiss I certainly don’t have a Swiss/French accent. I would say that my accent is quite international but that if you had to say where it was from, you would say that my accent is American, but definitely not that American. Overall, those were all my insecurities that I have. Again, I’m not trying to get any kind of attention or trying to get compliments. I’m genuinely just writing this so that people can feel inspires to acknowledge their own insecurities. Once you acknowledge your insecurities, you take away their power and I’m sure they soon won’t be insecurities soon.